Words don't Suffice

So much suffering
Grief observed
Loss incomprehensible
Long days stretch before
these dear ones,
widowed so young.
Oh so alone
The future formidable.

My own loss intermingled
My own loneliness insignificant
in comparison
but overwhelming, crushing.
Raw my heart.
Not widowed, but alone.
Rejected and betrayed.

Watching young love
in the midst of my pain
Somehow joy but also grief.
How can it be?
All in one heart.
All at one time.

Responsibility
I carry alone.
Distance through hard words.
Necessary but perhaps wrong.
Praying walls down
Wading through heaviness.

Light will come again
for them,
for me.

There are promises.
I must recall.

There is one who sticks closer than a brother.
I need Him, badly.
For them,
for me.