Meditation

A couple of weeks ago I attended an incredible morning of contemplative worship and prayer. We sat in Anne Dyck's big cozy barn with the rain pouring down on the green fields around us as we focused in on God in a very intentional way.  We were encouraged to listen to His still small voice as we listened to repeated readings of Psalm 147:1-11

It was a beautiful time of being washed by His Word and of hearing afresh the wonder of His majesty and love and His amazing invitation to us to enter in to this communion.

We answered questions such as:

What in my life needs to be healed by God?
How do I experience God as a loving Creator?
How do I experience God holding me?
How do you want to hold me, God?

This is what came to me...

Meditation June 14 – 2013  

Covering my face with kisses

His heart open towards me

A stream of love pours forth

Splashing down over me

Filling me

Washing me

Healing and refreshing me.

I belong

I am covered

Protected and Safe

So Connected

He in Me and I in Him

Amen.

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A GRACE

This time, set apart

I see more clearly

The clouds have lifted

Allowing revelation

Of how loved, covered and safe I am

Even though the physical is wasting away

His daily strengthening is deeper

And more profound

Thru daily leaning in

And praise

And trust

Through daily communing

The roots grow down

Reinforcements against the onslaught of life and the enemy’s attacks

-to dissuade and uproot.

The “issue” (at present) isn’t ever the issue

Don’t  focus on that

His Lovingkindness surrounds me!!

Freaking

I am amazed at how quickly I can move from being so busy with all those fun activities I just posted about and feeling "settled and content" to freaking out because I am afraid of this incredibly long summer that is stretching out before me.  Afraid of the fear that lurks around too many corners when my days are too empty and I am too unmotivated to make plans with people on daily basis.

As I pondered these two calendar blocks full of mostly empty squares I tried to think of fun things to do. Like TRAVEL!!  I love to travel!!  And now I have all the time in the world!  (just not so much money due to many big expenses this year).
But I digress.  I realized quite quickly that I need another person to travel with if I am going to drive somewhere. Because it's almost impossible for me to get gas on my own and I can't put the wheelchair in the back of the car after I get out of it if I rent one to go visit my friends in Ohio or Iowa!! (those are VERY tricky words to say in rapid succession.  Or just once in my case.) There are potentially innumerable places which are inaccessible to me and traveling is just ridiculously uncomfortable for me now that my back has become so unstable.

My kids are grown and working and having their own lives and I'm just feeling a little off kilter as I ponder my paralyzed future.  My friends are busy with their husbands and kids and all kinds of other activities so they can't just drop everything and come awandering with me!

I have done a bit of advertising to get some students this summer but then I am tied down doing the same thing all year... when it might be nice to have a break. Oh, decisions and conundrums.

But then I remember that I am not my own, and God has a plan for each block of the calendar.  He will make a way for me to be where I need to be.  I just need to be actively seeking Him to fill my days with what brings Him pleasure and then I will be filled up, "settled and content" again.

One day at a time.
Trusting, waiting, trusting.

Peeking Into June

Already June 20!
The days long,
So much light.
So much life.
So much rain.
Wonder-full!!  

It's been a lovely Spring.
This season has felt settled.
My heart not so anxious
New norms, routines, and contentment.
Trying to live in the moment,
or at least the day.
Grateful for so very much.

Respite.
Sweet fellowship with Jesus,
wherever, whenever.
Always available.

Learning to breath out those prayers.
Stretching faith muscles.
Speaking out words of life.
Calling forth what is not yet...

And here is a peek into my days of June, so far.

I had the privilege of holding vigil with a dear "new" friend Anita as her mother went from this earth to her heavenly home.  It was an amazing time of healing for me and of witnessing the most beautiful kind farewell a daughter could offer her mother...

Sad to see Becci & Martin move to Calgary, as our gatherings will be smaller and quieter, but knowing the Lord will provide for them and for us!!  Esther and Matthew joined us for the good bye BBQ!

Walk N Roll to Raise Funds for "Hands In Service" - Such FUN!! 

God provided a free ticket so I could watch STING live, from the fourth row. 

Lunch on the patio with my kids.  LOVE & GRATITUDE. 

A few raised garden beds were planted and we're excited to see what grows!

Lunch at the lake with our daughters...  

Precious times with extended family.  A hallway prayer meeting was held to pray for Dad's salvation.  Such dear people who BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!

Still enjoying our "Saturday GagEnZeit Nights" even though they're sometimes small and cozy. 

Butterfly Night with dear friends who walk through the seasons together.  My camera phone doesn't take "timer" photos so I don't have the group shot!

Another Saturday "GagEnZeit Night" with a few extras added in! 

Father's Day Fun.  What a good Daddy I have!

Since Rosie's too far away I find siblings of hers and their kids to hang out with!  A YWAM fundraiser in Oliver!

Sweetest people on the face of this earth..

Patrice giving Moose Sitz bath's to heal his hind end problems. She fed him popcorn and fresh water to make the experience feel like an exotic spa.